Sunday, February 27, 2011

Riding the Wave

Life has been so busy. I feel like I have been trying to catch up with it. Work is absolutely insane. Aside from serious work drama, I have a huge project that is keeping me from doing my regular work. It seems I have 2 full time jobs. I am so behind on my regular work that I have started putting in some longer days for mental wellness. Getting caught up will take some of that pressure off me.

I haven't been to yoga, partially because of all the work hours, I guess. I have to admit I haven't really made much effort to go either. I am not sure why. I know when I go it feels great but lately I have noticed a pattern that after I go strong for about 2 weeks I am hit with a bout of fatigue that takes me out. I have adrenal fatigue. That's a long story but I have been treating it with supplements and I seem to be getting better, but I have to be careful about putting undo stress on them. Sometimes I wonder if the Bikram is too much for them or if it's just me.

My studio seems to have a problem with the heat. I haven't been to another studio so I don't have anything to compare it to. I am not the only one who notices or has said anything. Sometimes the temp gets up to 112-116.  There is a new place near my house that has "hot yoga" and they offer 90 and 60 minute classes. I was thinking I might give it a try and see how they do and if it is a better option for me.

As far as food and dieting...I really wonder if I will be on this journey forever. I haven't been doing very well on the WW. I have learned something though. It's all about control. I will try to explain without being confusing.

I diet so I can be in control of my eating.
I quit dieting because I feel I am being controlled and I want to be in control of my eating.
My eating gets out of control, and I don't like being out of control
I diet so I can be in control of my eating.

WTF!? I really don't know what to do about all that. I am going to have to talk to my counselor...messed up that's all I know.

Despite it all, I have been feeling good energy wise and mood wise. For me that is my biggest challenge. So I'll take it.

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