Pressure

I am in the process of learning. I am learning not to put pressure on myself to be perfect. Not to put pressure on myself to be like others.

Lately I haven't been able to get to yoga as much as I would like. When that happens I start with the mind games. I hear that voice, "you're lazy, you're not good enough, you're a failure."
But this is simply not true. I am me.

I have my own set of challenges and my own set of issues that I deal with. I should not compare myself with others. The fact that I go to yoga at all is amazing given my past regarding exercise. Who am I doing this for anyway? Myself.

I am not naturally athletic and not a person who naturally craves Kale Smoothies. So I am proud for the accomplishments I have made.

Last week I joined Weight Watchers, as a guideline not a diet. I have joined it before but I am doing it with a different mindset this time. I realize I talked about the diet roller-coaster before and so I am not using WW as a diet. I am working with my counselor and I am learning about reasons for eating when I'm not hungry. It's really interesting. I have lost 3lbs.

So I will continue my journey..learning and discovering. It's not about perfect, it's about practice. Not just in my yoga but in my life.